If you really knew me..

If you really knew me you'd know I love to dance.
If you really knew me you'd know I love to sing Celine Dion songs with my friends belting it from the top of our lungs.
If you really knew me you'd know I love to run.
If you really knew me you'd know I use running as an escape.
If you really knew me you'd know that I'm highly emotional and get hurt easy.
If you really knew me you'd know that I fall for boys easily, even though I try not to.
If you really knew me you'd know that my dad passed away seven years ago.
If you really knew me you'd know that it's sometimes hard for me to talk about him without crying even to this day.
If you really knew me you'd know that my favorite colors pink
If you really knew me you'd know that I called my grandma "Nana" and her favorite color was pink as well.
If you really knew me you'd know that my Nana was the one who held me and comforted me when my dad died.
If you really knew me you'd know that my Nana passed away almost two years ago, and I think about her often.
If you really knew me, maybe you wouldn't be so quick to judge me.

Envy.

Who'd Have Known- Lily Allen

It's 5 o'clock in the morning
Conversation got boring
You said you're going to bed soon
So I snuck off to your bedroom
And I thought I'd just wait there
Til I heard you come up the stairs
I pretended I was sleeping
And I was hoping you would creep in
With me
You put your arm around my shoulder
It was as if the room got colder
We moved closer in together
And started talking bout the weather
Said tomorrow would be fun
We can watch A Place In The Sun
I didn't know where this was going
When you kissed me
Are you mine?
Are you mine?
Cause I stay here all the time
Watching telly, drinking wine
Who'da known, who'da known
When you flash up on my phone
I'd no longer feel alone
No longer feel alone
I haven't left here for days now
And I'm becoming amazed how
You're quite affectionate in public
In fact, your friend said it made her feel sick
And even though it's moving forward
There's just the right amount of awkward
And today you accidentally
Called me baby
Are you mine?
Are you mine?
Cause I stay here all the time
Watching telly, drinking wine
Who'da known, who'da known
When you flash up on my phone
I'd no longer feel alone
Let's just stay
Let's just stay
I wanna lie in bed all day
We'll be laughing all the way
Told your friends
They all know
We exist but we're taking it slow
Now let's just see how we go
Now let's see how we go
Let's just stay
Let's just stay
I wanna lie in bed all day
We'll be laughing all the way
Told your friends
They all know
We exist but we're taking it slow
Now let's just see how we go
Now let's see how we go

I am jealous of this poem because it's talking about a girl and boy that are starting to fall in love and that's just all I want in life right now. I envy people who are in love.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               

Let it Be.

This is for everyone whose ever had their heart broken.
This is for anyone whose ever been played.
Let it be.
This is for anyone whose been bullied,
the people who have been physically hurt, or physically hurt themselves.
Let it be.
This is for anyone whose been judged.
For the one that people call a "Slut" but you're really were raped.
This is for you.
This is for anyone whose gotten so far in the deep end,
that they think there's no hope in going back.
This is for you.
This is for the ones who think drugs, and alcohol is the only way out.
Let it be.
For anyone who gave it there all,
and still came out the loser.
This is for the childhood dreamers.
For the girls who dream of being a princess.
BE a princess. No one can stop you.
This is for you.
This is for the girls that think they're fat.
This is for the kids that feel no love.
This is for the STRONG,
and this is for the weak.
This is for the hopeless, and the homeless.
This is for you, and this... this is for me.
Let it be.

Ghandi

I keep forgetting the sound of his voice,
the way his face looks.
I keep forgetting how a functional family looks.
I keep forgetting he is part of this family.
I keep forgetting what it's like to be loved,
to be held,
to have someone to run to when your heart is broken.
I keep forgetting what it's like to have a man in my life,
a REAL man.
I keep forgetting what it's like to be happy,
what it's like to see my mom happy.
I keep forgetting how my brother use to be before we lost you.
Before he came home stoned all the time reeking of weed.
I keep forgetting he loves me.
I keep forgetting.
I keep forgetting to just let it be.
I keep forgetting that I'll be able to see him again one day,
Because when I forget,
I sometimes mess up.
I keep forgetting that I'm currently carrying your last name,
and you were a great man, so I should be a great women.
I'll try not forget anymore,
because I love you, Dad.

My Journey

Born in Arizona, raised in Utah.

I've grown up like any other kid, except, I don't have a dad.

It's hard to grow up without a dad, without a man to love you.

I have had my heart broken numerous times,

Just because I feel the need to be loved by a man.

I fight for everyday of my life.

I'm trying to figure out who I am, and am still in the process.

Hopefully one day I can figure out My Journey.

Film Analysis

Law Abiding Citizen (2009)
Ordinary World:Cylde Shelton is a Engineer, and a very smart man. He is a happy Father, with a beautiful daughter and wonderful wife.
Call to Adventure:Clyde owes some money to a man by the name of Darby and fails to pay up, so Darby comes to his home, knocks Clyde down, kills his daughter, and rapes his wife and kills her as well while Clyde is laying on the floor, watching,unable to move.

Refusal:At the trial there is not enough evidence to convict Darby, and only his accomplish Rupert Ames is sent to the death row and Darby only has to serve three years in prison. After Clyde pleads with his lawyer, Nick Rice, he's only disappointed to find out there is nothing he can do because there's no evidence and the justice system just doesn't work that way.

Mentor:To me, Nick Rice in a way is Clyde's Mentor. By telling him that it was just how the justice system works in america it set him off to show the country how terrible their system really was.

Threshold: Ten years later,Clyde becomes a violent sociopath and is arrested as the chief suspect for Darby's death.

Test, Allies, Enemies: Clyde is a very smart man and his only allie is himself. Where on the other hand everyone involved in his wife's and daughters case is his enemy.

Approach:In order for Nick to get a real confession out of him, Clyde makes a deal. He wants a new mattress with a soft pillow. Once in Jail he makes another deal in order for them to find a detective that he has buried alive. All he wants is a steak from a certain restaurant delivered at 1:15 and he will tell them where the body is. He uses the T-bone from the steak and kills his cell mate and is then sent to solitary confinement.

Ordeal: Clyde has secret tunneling in solitary confinement and sneaks out to place a bomb in city hall right under a very important meeting. Nick finds the bomb and takes it back to Clydes cell and hides it under his bed. The bomb is triggered by a cell phone. Clyde thinks the bomb is still where its suppose to be so it triggers it and kills himself.

Reward: He no longer has to suffer with living without his wife and daughter.
Return with Elixir: Clyde has been able to show in some way how off Americas Justice System is and that it needs to be fixed.

Archetypes:

Hero- Clyde Shelton

Mentor- Nick Rice

Threshold Guardian- Judge Laura Burch

Herald- Nick Rice
Shapeshifter- Mysterious Co-worker

Shadow- Clarence Darby

Trickster- Nick Rice

Ordinary World

Her names Lemoses Pepperseed.
Every morning she drags herself out of bed and puts on that stingy smile that hides all the pain she really feels inside.

The house she lives in is the farthest thing from a home. 

Seeing as there's no male figure present anywhere in her life she falls easily in love,
but it's only a matter of time before she gets her heart broken yet again.
At night she sits in her bed and cries where no one can her hear.
She carves things into her skin hoping it will take the pain in her heart away.
She knows she isn't perfect, and regrets many of the choices she has made in her life.

After a year and a half he tells her he is done with her. Just like that.
This time it's too much.
He doesn't deserve her tears, and she doesn't need him.
This time she's going to take a different approach.
Fixing all the mistakes she's made, and most importantly, she's going to be happy.